To be honest, I should have expected it. This always happens after a breakthrough.
The song Oceans (Where My Feet May Fail)--Hillsong United really shook me this weekend. I mean like, it was on repeat for a good while. Over and over I was letting the words wash over me. It's like the words of my heart that I didn't know how to express had made it out into a song. Love how that works. One of the verses (and chorus) is this:
I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise my soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mine
Your grace abounds in deepest waters
Your sovereign hand
Will be my guide
Where feet may fail and fear surrounds meYou've never failed and You won't start now
His grace abounds in deepest waters. A friend of mine and I were talking this weekend about how in John it says "I have told you all this so that you may have peace in me. Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows. But take heart, because I have overcome the world." I WILL have trials. I WILL have sorrows. But HE has overcome the world. He has overcome these very things I'm working through. He has overcome sickness in my family. He has overcome the relationship struggles. He has overcome anything and everything that I am working through. The absolute safest place for me to be is with my eyes set on Him... trusting without borders. I love that the verse says, "You've never failed and you won't start now."
So again, in everything, I am going to live in complete dependence on Him. I'm not sure why every day I have to do that. I wish I could just wake up and live it. But that's my human nature. I have to commit myself and my life and the circumstances around me every day to Him. Maybe every hour or minute, taking every thought captive.
The bridge of this song has become my prayer. I hope it becomes yours, too.
Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior